I felt pretty good today. I felt awake and aware. I noticed the different characters that came up in the session came into my mind today. Am I cured of everything? No. But remember, if you read my book, I don’t believe in a cure. I also didn’t start this new process to be cured of anything. I believe in accepting who I am and rolling with that.
I may not believe in a cure, but I to believe in those magical feelings that come up, when you begin to embrace who you really are. I feel if I set myself up for a “cure”....that means I am also accepting that I need to be fixed. And guess what? Maybe I don’t. Maybe I need to embrace and accept who I am.
I went out this morning to run some errands.
Ran into a jerk on the street. That happens. I live in L.A. The dude just zipped around me and raced only to get to a red stop light.
Oh I wanted to Barney Fife his ass….but then I had a voice that yelled, “Wait! Don’t waste your energy. It’s not your job to take care of him. So I went on.
I long for the day I just tut tut behavior like that. But that might not happen. I may always react a little to rudeness. But I didn’t act out on those feelings. That urge to Barney Fife his ass...is a part of me. She’s sassy and fights for justice. As Ursula said to me, we don’t want to get rid of any of my parts.
So I went the rest of the day just feeling my feelings, being aware of the different characters that make up Rebecca, and it felt good.
Accepting ourself and all our parts.
Technically, we can say "ourselves"
The premise of this work is that we have a True Self and then all our parts. I say our Best Self and then all the parts of ourselves are ego based.
I am a Metaphysician, I explain that an angry man lives in an an angry world and peaceful man lives in a peaceful world.
They live in the same world, How we see the world is how we respond to the world.
When life happens, we respond to it. We are taught and role modeled how to respond to it. Most of our impressions happen before we can see the bigger picture. When we are small human beings we are sponges, soaking up everything, as real. Instead of saying, "oh my parents are messed up and ignorant of what would work better." We conclude, "oh, it must be my fault, I am not worth it." It goes on for generations.
When we are getting to know our parts, it's a very curious thing. Cautious at first, transforming, then falling in love with them before the hour is up. It's so beautiful for me to witness and usher. I love this work because it empowers the client. I could do all the work for them, but I purposely do it the way I do, so the client can get the satisfaction and fulfillment of the adventure of reconnecting.
When we don't accept ourselves, then we are rejecting ourselves. Which turns out to be a split in our self love, self respect. That split takes on a "way" of it's own. It's a belief, a feeling, a phrase, a stab, a jab, a practice, a negativity, a family habit. When we can identify, then we can make some new choices on how we deal with it. When we are healing it, then we can keep the good of it and love it. To know something deeply is to love it. When we stop fighting ourselves, we can calm down considerably.
I am happy. In just our first session, Rebecca, is already getting closer to self acceptance.