In my book Mental Girl, I talk about the search for a cure to heal my mind and that I believe there no cure. I believe in self care, healing, trying on new things, learning new things. But the bottom line, so I don’t set up myself to fail or fall...I don’t look to “cure” myself. Mental Girl’s goal (mine too because I am her) is to like myself as is...moles (mental tics, warts (anxiety), sunspots (I actually now have those - but let’s say...this is that weird feeling inside that you aren’t worthy). I, along with Mental Girl’s help, am trying to love and like myself as I am.
I decided to venture out on an adventure with a healer named Ursula Lentine. She read Mental Girl and after meeting and discussing ideas, we decided to work together on a project. She would offer me her gift of Internal Family Systems, and I would offer my gift (Mental Girl’s chutzpah and gift of gab) and write about it.
Am I nervous? Sure. Am I wondering what will happen? Of course. Am I excited? Yes.
When I met Ursula I scanned her. I do that with everyone. I scan for ways to connect and relate. I wanted to make sure we communicated well together. We spoke about the project.
One of the things I really like right away was she felt grounded. It’s important to me to be tethered to this world. I enjoy talking about spirituality and religion, but I also like to feel a table is a table, and that there is no right way to do this thing called life.
Ursula was easy to talk with, she had a great laugh, a contagious smile, and I felt a click. I need those clicks. It just lets me know, okay, she sees me, I see her, we are groovin’.
My first session is coming up. I will blog about it. Again, of course I’m nervous. I’m not sure what to expect. We are going in it with open minds and hearts. We both agreed to be honest with each other and open to the adventure ahead.
So here we go Mental Girl...put on your your cape, grab my hand….