Eeeeek! I'm moody! Wow. I mean I can feel it through out my body. It makes me feel grouchy, irritable, annoyed....what else...I realize I'm basically repeating myself and just finding new words to describe how I feel....which is a very pissy person. Blech!
Let's assess. My bullshit detector goes off all day long. But do I call people on their bullshit? Sometimes. Well come on! Are you kidding me? Sometimes...I just let it go...and I ask myself why is this bothering me? I know it's bullshit. I know I'm not going to change people if they don't want to change. Sure it's annoying. But why do I bother with this shit? I don't know! Bad habits are hard to break. I want people to clean up their bullshit! I want people to be self aware. I want people to...stop touching me. I'm not in a touchy mood right now.
Yes, I have been warning close friends and family. "Hey - keep a little distance. Things are a little blurry and testy in here. My apologies in advance." Do they take the warning? Not every time. Which does salt my apples. I love that saying. My son said it to me a while back and it made me giggle. It's really helping right now to let go of some of this griping. It's helping me to laugh a little.
I'm hormonal. Okay. All of my issues are rising to the surface. It's as if I'm being tested. Poke. Do you like that? No! Do you want to deal with this right now? No! Do you think you can handle this? Ugh.....you know what? Yes! I've got my tools. I will use my tools.
I don't have to go all crazy and spiral down too far before I remember I have tools...and I do need to remember I'm not the only one. So many are dealing with their own issues. It is part of life. Whether you are dealing with mental health issues, physical discomfort, health or money issues - we are human. We've got issues. When you talk to people - and they start letting it out - I really think people are just jumping to let it out - which for the record - I'm trying to be a good listener - but I'm a bit depleted right now to hear too many gory details - you know - however......
Talk to me about your feelings. Talk to me about your solutions. Talk to me about your successes. Let's stay balanced.
I went out this morning for a short walk. I'm not feeling so good, so I just wasn't up for a long walk. I did a podcast.
I've been posting stuff on Instagram:
I got the nicest message from a stranger on Instagram letting me know my posts were appreciated. Felt really good.
After my walk, I decided to run to the store. When I got there, I just couldn't decide what to get. I was looking around and I just couldn't pull off a "marketing" trip. So....I bought some tea and a plant. A sweet little fern and some yummy calm tea. I'm happy about that. I named her Fern. Yeah, I couldn't over do the thinking on a name. It does suit her thought, don't you think? She's cute.
Be happy about the small things you get done.
Be happy about the small steps you are making to heal.
Be happy about the fact your presence here on earth is valuable. You have a place here.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for your support.
Mental Girl is here!