Wow. I was just finished with today's blog, ready to hit publish and I deleted the whole thing by accident. I was reposting the picture above. I wanted to crop it a little and frame it - and when I deleted the picture - it deleted my writing too. Let me tell you - I'm sad and frustrated. I can't rewrite it - because I can't remember how I started and exactly what I wrote. I just let myself free flow write. Dangnabbit!
Well...I know it was about communication, clarity and trying to stay calm. So - here I have an opportunity - to use my tools.
I did take this icture of the clouds while walking today. I couldn't do my podcast. Anchor, the app on my phone, wasn't working. Wow - first the app - now deleting my writing. Okay - so am I being tested here? No, Rebecca. No need to go there. I really feel anger stirring. I'll look at the picture of the clouds. Actually - it's helping. I can ask myself. Do I wanted to rage, thunder and pour out any and all emotions that are going through my mind? Or do I want to take deep breaths, accept what is, and move on.? I'll take the later.
I'll be honest - I'm breathing - but I'm sad. I really was pleased with the blog. Deep breath.
I don't seem to be able to pull another awesome blog out of my mind today. I mean, I guess I'm writing one right now. I mean, not that this one is awesome. I meant - just another blog. I'm not that confident about everything I write. Wow - take a deep breath dear. I've written something. I guess I'm accepting my feelings and moving on. Wow. My original blog was about setting boundaries, being clear, and working on my communication skills. It was a good topic. But it morphed into this...I'm accepting and allowing myself and this blog to organically repair - turn from anger about deleting my writings - to....realizing I'm still actually writing something right now.
All right clouds - what do you have? Are you gonna rain? Are you gonna thunder? Yep...what will be, will be.