I'm all a tingle today. I feel like...well I feel like I'm me...but I'm a little bit more of an aware me...noticing things inside me changing, shifting, and also noticing and aware what stuff inside me still needs attention for healing. But it's cool. It's a nice feeling.
I did my podcast this morning. I sure am glad to have it back up and working. I had so many thoughts running through my mind this morning - but at the same time - I was so aware of myself thinking them, noticing things around me - and also inside - noticing there was this calm part again leading me. I had a wonderful healing session with Ursula, which I will be posting soon.
So here's today's podcast:
The sky was beautiful this morning. I was standing on a corner and to the left it was a little cloudy - with those white puffy clouds and blue skies. (see picture above) To the right the sun was bursting through the clouds - a little more gray - but still blue skies. (see picture below) I quickly grabbed my camera and took a quick picture of both. I think I got some good pictures.
After my walk - I took a quick one this morning - I ran...wait I didn't run...I drove, carefully, to the store, hoping to purchase some good snacks for our friends who are coming over later today. I just couldn't pick something out. Really - there are so many choices in the markets these days. It can be a bit overwhelming. I heard a pushy part say - just get that....or that....how about that? Then a calm side said, no, I'm not just going to buy anything. If I can't find the right stuff, that's ok. Why buy "just" to buy? So I didn't. I came back home, confident, somehow I will figure it out. Thank you calm part.
I still feel this revved up part inside me that keeps listing all the things I need to get done today - the days events ahead - and nudges me to get going! I take a deep breathe and also listen to the calm part in my mind - the relaxed - go with the flow and groove with it part - who says - you've got this.
Woosh! A lot of chatter in my mind. I used to want to scream, "Shut up!" I would get so overwhelmed with all of my thoughts and feelings. Now I'm acknowledging it all, breathing through it, and reassuring my mind - I hear you - I'll get to you - we can figure this out all out. Just do me a favor Self. Keep breathing. Keep relaxing those shoulders. And listen to your calm, relaxed Self. You've got this.