I gotta admit. I'm still just...sort of....um....exhausted.
I did a podcast this morning. Wow...I caught myself. I was letting out a lot of ums....I was getting distracted, I felt utterly exhausted this morning when I first started out on my walk but....wait...where was I going with this train of thought? See? My mind is just goofy right now. Here's today's podcast.
Okay, so I'm tired and my mind is a bit foggy. That's OK. I'm declaring it OKAY. It's okay to feel a little frazzled as one walks down memory lane. I have looked through so much stuff in the past week. Writings, journals, looked through pictures (baby me, young me, teenager me, first husband me, party girl me) and I've sorted through so much stuff already. None of this stuff was organized. It was just tossed in boxes. Tons of boxes. The memories are bouncing around to all kind of years. I go back to the 70's one second - only to zoom to 2006 and up enjoying pictures of my son as a baby and young toddler - then I'm pulled back to the 50's - looking at pictures of my parents before I was born. I've found pictures from the early 1800's of family - some with notes on the back to let me know who the hell these people are - because some of them - I have no clue!
I found this picture.
I believe it was in the early 2000's. I was a bit of a party girl back then. I had divorced from husband #1. I wanted to feel a sense of freedom and let loose. I believe this picture was taken by a boyfriend I was seeing at the time. We got our hands on a polaroid and took lots of pictures. I look a bit hungover here. I was a bit lost then. I was living alone - and figuring things out - but I remember I felt lost and sad a lot.
Life. What can you do? So many stories - each and every one of us has thousands of stories. They are our stories. Share them if you like. Tuck them in your heart if they need safe keeping. But honor them. Honor yourself. It shows growth. It shows change. It shows survival. It shows YOU.
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