Wow, it appears I need to beef up my self care routine.
I just keep picking up worries, what ifs, and overthinking thoughts....and why?! I don't need to do this. I can put them down! Mental Girl! She's here. I can feel here with me.
I went out this morning and went for a walk. I did a podcast.
It felt good to walk and talk. I apologize if the city sounds are distracting or annoying to you. One of these days, I'll get my audio working better. But for now, I feel it gives a "real life" vibe...because I am doing them...while walking...in real life. I've gotten so comfortable doing them, I don't pause the recording as much when I see someone coming or cars pass me. I don't worry about it. They don't know what I'm doing. Only you and I do.
I've also been doing little short videos on Instagram.
So, after my walk and podcast, I went to get a coffee. At first I couldn't think where to go. I go to several places. But one place, has been a bit disappointing lately. My coffees are not cheap. It's a splurge. I like my coffee buying experience to come with a good feeling. This one place, I like the owner, but the women working there, have been a bit grumpy lately when I go. I know it's not me. But I'm a regular! So...I thought, where can I go, to get a good muffin and a good coffee, with a good vibe. So I got in the car, turned on some comedians and began my adventure to find a good coffee. I did find a good coffee. And even better, an epiphany. Here it is:
It's all bullshit.
All this stuff I worry about and fret about - it's bullshit.
We're all complaining, living in our lives, thinking that what we do and who we are is so worthy of all this thinking...and it's...NOT. In my opinion. And let me continue...cause that sounds really rude.
It's ok, to believe in bullshit. It's okay to overthink. It's OK to worry about bullshit. It's OK, to own and have bullshit. But just know it's bullshit. Be aware. It comes in....and it goes out. But guess what? That bullshit is yours. Mine is mine. We can do whatever we like with our bullshit. Play with it, worry about it, talk about it, don't talk about it, share it, or keep it all for ourselves. Just know - we ALL have it. We're all trying to make sense and work through our bullshit. See?
Does that still sound rude? Because I'm going more for relief, relate and relax.
Take this. We put celebrities up on a pedestal. We think they are so wise and so powerful and sooo....whatever. They are filled with bullshit too. Whisper: Sometimes more than us!
Our politicians, our leaders, our doctors, lawyers, and whatever professionals you think are better than you...NOPE...they have bullshit too.
So.....deep breath. When I thought about my bullshit...and all that I think, worry and what if about - I thought - OK.....that's it....it was just OK.
I'm not sure if you may have just had the thought I have gone around the bend...or that I am in fact full of bullshit (which I just admitted to - so that shouldn't come as a surprise)....but....BUT....try it. Look at your stuff, both physical and emotional. Bullshit.
Now...if you look at your stuff like bullshit....just plain ole' in and out bullshit....you can then say...
Yes...I deal with my own bullshit.
I own my own bullshit.
I'm healing through my own bullshit.
I might always have this bullshit.
Hey...I've let go of that bullshit.
You might have a little more fun in the in betweens...and THAT....is where the 5 minutes of bliss can be found. Oooooooooh delicious. I speak of it in Mental Girl book 1. I love the 5 minute bliss moments. Yum!
All right onward....I need to deal and work through my bullshit today. Good luck with yours!
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