I love the rain. I enjoy overcast days. I've said it before, and I'll say it again.
I'm not in the "norm" around here.
People like (and sometimes demand) the sunny skies around here. They think rain is sad. Now I agree for the homeless, those who can't seek shelter - yes. And I feel so sad for them. I really wish our state would get on the problem of homelessness around here. I've voted for all of it to help them out. I want to find the charities I can help or donate to - who I feel confident will get the help needed to these people. I hear news they are working on it - and I hope this gets solved. No one should live on the streets. Everyone should have shelter, warmth, food and access to medical help.
With that said, we have been in a drought for a long time. This is much needed rain. I am looking forward to a spectacular Spring.
Here's another reason why I won't watch the news. They scare us about the drought. We have tons of rain - they scare us about the floods and the dirty wash out to our ocean. But...but...but...why not solve that problem? I don't understand why we aren't saving this rain water in barrels. I don't understand why after many, many MANY years they haven't solved the flooding problems.
Deep breath Rebecca. I get riled up.
So.....the reason I was getting riled up - is because I don't want my enjoyment of this beautiful rain ruined. I don't want to feel guilty for loving rain. It's okay for people not to like the rain. I understand. Not everyone does. People have to drive in it, walk in it, and work in it. But I like it. I enjoy it.
Let me tell you - yesterday I was hoping for a small break in the rain. I almost lost my rain smile. It has been raining really hard at times. Yesterday morning, I woke up to find we had a leak in the house. I was so bummed. And then...I went into the bathroom - to find a leak in the plumbing under the sink. I was more bummed. And then....the ants were storming the bathroom. I was even more bummed. I could feel my smile turning to a droop. But no! I said - that's it. I actually began to laugh a little. I thought - together as a family we're going to solve this - well my husband did most of the work. I did the cleanup and wipe up - he got up on the roof and under the sink. By the evening it appeared (knock on wood - I really hope it's all fixed) all seemed well. By bedtime, I was back under the covers sleeping listening to the rain coming down and smiling.
I really like the sound of rain. I like the smell of it. I like the way the city looks - all clean and fresh.
I get it. Shit happens. We become challenged. I don't like it either. Oh I woke up this morning and the plumbing isn't fixed yet. And I got soaked in the rain today. But I'm really going to take a moment along with a deep breath and give myself credit that I haven't let anxiety take over yesterday and today - and I haven't spiral down.
I even worked on Mental Girl book 2 yesterday and then again today. It's looking good. I'm very excited.
Anxiety has been coming in waves. Even when I feel good - it sneaks in and pokes me. Just this morning, I got spooked a little going to the market. I got in the car. I was nervous if it would rain on the way. I started to think I would be all wet - my groceries wet - the traffic might be bad. I was sad seeing homeless wet on the street. I could feel anxiety trickle in and pinch me. But I spoke to it - firmly yet gently and lovingly. I listened to Mental Girl.
She said, "Hey - it's OK. We can go slow. We can do what we can. We can take it easy. We are allowed to enjoy our life. We can work through this. I'm here."
I had a great therapy session today. And I did a podcast. anchor.fm/mentalgirl/episodes/Mental-Girl-self-care-e341k2
Also I've been posting fun rain stuff on Instagram.
Don't forget those deep soothing breaths. Don't forget you have a place and a part here. Don't forget you are appreciated and loved. It is your right.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for your support.