I am still working on the drawing book I bought. Just in case anyone wants to give it a go, it's called Drawing On The Right Side Of The Brain by Betty Edwards. It is the workbook. It's fabulous.
It's really opening up channels in my brain that I never thought were there. It's also coming at a perfect time because my anxiety was recently kicked up again. I've had to slather on the self care routine, therapy, healing, reading, and breathing. But also - the drawing exercises, doing them, seeing the results has lessened some of the anxiety. When I do the exercises and look at the work - it doesn't matter if it's perfect or even good. It's right there on the paper. My work. I did it. I took the time to complete the task and I create something.
This last exercise was all about lines. It was called Warm-up and Free Drawing. It was all about feeling the lines on the paper. You could choose using #4 pencils or felt tip markers. I chose felt tip markets. The exercise directed you to allow your personality to shine through. At first I read it and I thought I don't get it. The book talked about the artist in you from your history, cultural background, physiology and personality. You were to do five drawings using "Line Styles."
One using very fast "Mastisse" marks.
Second was medium-fast "van Gogh" marks.
Third was medium-slow "Delacroix" marks.
Fourth was using very slow "Ben Shahn" marks.
And the last exercise was to use your own marks.
They do give examples. But at first, that made it even more difficult to me. I felt myself get tight and tense thinking nope - here it is - one exercise I won't be able to do. But I took a deep breath, practiced some loving and kind self care talk, and went outside to the backyard. I sat down at the table, took a deep breath and just looked around my yard.
And I drew.
There were a couple times the wind blew my paper up causing my hand to jerk and swipe a mark I didn't mean to make. But it was OK. I went with it. There were a couple of the exercises I just felt frustrated- I couldn't think of anything to draw. But I just accepted my thoughts and feelings, took more deep breaths, and just let it out.
It was great. That's a picture of my work up at the top. I'm proud of it.
Art. Creativity. Learning. It's a great way to remind yourself - to be YOU. Which as you know, is Mental Girl approved.
I've been doing podcasts. I did one earlier in the week. I didn't do one this morning. I actually forgot. I got outside this morning and I just started walking and looking around - I guess I was just being mindful. I'm OK with that.
I've been posting fun stuff on Instagram.
I'm looking forward to what's next with the art book.
I'm all right.
I'm working through some kinks. I'm working through some feelings. I'm working through some thoughts. The goal is to keep healing the anxiety. The goal is to keep liking and loving myself. The goal is to be the best ME I can be. As I am.
Thanks for being here.
Thanks for your support.
I'm glad you are here.