I don't really know how to analyze dreams. I wish I did. I get some weird ones. I had dreams about alligators and exes last night. So vivid. They were really snappy. Weird.
All right Thursday, what do you have going on for me? Yes, I'm up. I've done my stretches, loving self talk, went for a walk, did a podcast, here it is....
I ran a quick market errand and got a coffee. Okay, I didn't run to the market. I drove. What a funny way to say that...I ran to the market. I mean some people run to the market - but I usually drive. Oh for heavens sake, why I am talking about this?
I'm just trying to distract myself, lighten my mood, and get silly...because I've been feeling nervous. Just life - and it's life stuff - it's life questions and concerns - mustering up the strength to keep muddling through it all - well...I'm just a little nervous. I like when life just goes smoothly, quietly - rolls along. And then...stuff happens and you have to be alert, awake, calm, clear and ready to take action. Sometimes, I want to nap and have it all taken care of by the time I wake up.
Deep breath. I'm responsible. I have the strength to do this life stuff. Come on Becky! Becky...that's me. One of my A.K.A.'s.
So Becky...Rebecca...Reba....Mental Girl...what's the goal? Stay on path. Stay on your path. You've got this. You can go different ways, you can walk around and try things out...but you know the path. Stay on it. Be true to you. Do the best you can. Take deep breaths. It'll be all right.
I like this picture I've included in this blog. When I see paths, it relaxes me. Someone is lighting the way. It feels like they're saying, walk this way...try this route...you can always take it back and try a different one. Paths are nice. They're inviting. This particular one goes around a tree. I think it's lovely with the plants surrounding the stepping stones.
So breathe in. Breathe out.
Inhale the good shit. Exhale the bullshit.
It's gonna be all right.