Do we all have a bit of a routine to our lives?
I mean...even someone with a bustling schedule, who travels a lot, and has tons of events and parties...is that your routine? I'm talking about the routine of your life, that feels comfortable to you, and when the wind shifts a little and a mood or something happens, it gets you rattled. Do you know that feeling? Even just the realization we really aren't fully in control. Egad. That scares me. Well...now it intimidates me. I've come to breathe through the scared feelings. Now...at times....it's a challenging thought...it's challenging to move through that awakened truth.
Okay - enough of that. I'm going to pull myself down into a Monday morning funk if I overthink this stuff.
I do that. I think that's why Mondays feel funny to me. Okay. The start of the week. Am I going to continue with my routine, adding here and there, or will the wind shift? What do I need to do? What do I want to do? Why am I here? What should I get done this week? Do I do enough? What's the meaning of all of this?
Egads! I'm doing it again.
I had some weird dreams last night. So forgive me. I'm overthinking.
Here's today's podcast while I pull myself together.
Mental Girl! Deep breathing inserted here.
All right....after doing a lot of self care work, and continuing to do it...I can pull myself out of overthinking, over worrying, and over doing it. It's not easy. I'm human. I'll admit to over reacting about stuff. I'll admit to coming up with preposterous shit sometimes. But I do a lot of self care work. I can feel the tension build in my body - my sub conscious - which I've know retrained - says what's up? Oh no - we need to stabilize. I then slather on more self care to protect myself.
I went for a short walk today. I did my podcast. I was sort of questioning why I do them. I do enjoy sharing. I never know how many of you will listen, or how I sound (again - I rarely listen to it), and I use it as a tool to let go of stuff - with the hope some of my rambling can help someone else. I enjoy reaching out. There are times I"ll do a quick podcast, babbling, feeling all kinds of things - and when I'm done - I feel better.
I would like to kick it up a bit. A friend of mine and I take these long walks together. We share our thoughts, dreams and over thinking crap. But by the end of the walk, both of us have laughed, learned, supported each other and realized - we aren't alone. Look at this. Her and I - sharing and caring - moving forward in the world. It's cool. Anyway, on our walks I babble - and she laughs a lot. She keeps telling me, "I need a tape recorder to record you. You need to write this in a book!" I laugh. She knows I do write. But she wants me to write all this goofy stuff I say on our walk. I wish I could remember! It just flows out of me. When I feel safe to really be me, which is more often now, I can communicate freely, as silly ole' me. But that makes me feel good that she likes what I say. So I'm going to listen in more from time to time to the babbling I do with her and see if there is something there. Another book perhaps? That's an inspiring and creative thought.
So get out there and check yourself out. In between your routine and rituals, your thoughts and feelings, check yourself out. Observe yourself. Observe yourself like you are your own best friend. What do you like? What are you thinking about? What cooks your goose? What puts wind in your sails ? All right...I'm giving you a little Monday morning task to try. Along with slathering on a lot of great self care talk. Now, of course, do it or don't do it - no pressure. It's just a suggestion. I'm going to try it too.
Have a great week.
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