I've been feeling a little fragile lately. Just some old worries, nagging thoughts and what ifs began to swirl around in my mind. In my opinion, after I caught a cold,I was feeling vulnerable and tired and those thoughts took their opportunity to sneak in! But I see you. Okay I hear you. I'm going to accept you as is...but I'm not going to let you run the show! No!
I try to be aware when my thoughts are turning somewhat darker...and some of them are trying to scare me. I have learned to look at them, these are my parts chatting away, so I take my time and be patient, speak kindly (they just want some attention) but then to lovingly tell them....I'm here. It is OK.
If you don't know the concept about "parts", feel free to venture into my section called Unveiling With Ursula. I've done a lot of work with her, and we worked through my subconscious which included a lot of different parts - that make up - well ME. It has been an amazing journey. We took a short break - and now we're continuing on with the adventure. So stay tune with all of that.
I did a podcast today.
I had a lovely walk this morning. The air was crisp. The energy was actually calm outside. It was nice. I still am not taking super long walks. I'm still recovering from this cold. It's interesting - it wasn't a bad cold - but my body hadn't felt a cold in a long time - and I think it just wants to chill out a little bit more before I start pushing it a little harder. I still feel cloggy. I still sound stuffy. I still don't feel it completely is out of my head. When I can hear my voice clear again, and I have that extra pep - I'll push it. But in the meantime, I feel I have work to do.
I have creative work.
I have inner work.
I have daily work.
I have self care work.
Now...I almost went back and changed the word work. I thought - oh dear - that word - makes it sound so...worky. (Yes, I know - not a word). But I'm changing my perception and feeling towards the word. I value the work I've done. The work I've done has given me so many gifts - helped me heal - given me a stronger urge to continue falling in love with myself. So...yep - work is a good word! This work has been fun too.
All right - so onward and upward!
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for supporting me.