Guess what? I'm back! I mean, I was here...but I'm talking about my podcasts. I got Anchor to work. Yipeee! Well, I hope it's a yippee...for you too. Okay, Rebecca - now don't go over thinking your podcasts and if people like them.
I fiddled with it yesterday, and basically uninstalled the app, looked for another one - couldn't find one that suited my needs and my comfort level -I reinstalled anchor again- and voila! It worked! Here it is:
There were so many people out and about early this morning. I didn't have enough privacy to do my podcast. I had so much to say. Well, at least I thought I did. I have these monologues that go through my mind in the morning- and I'll think - this is great - I have great things to share. Oh my podcast will be so entertaining. I get outside - distracted - self conscious - and I begin to ramble. But you get a piece of me - raw - rambling - and real. I guess that's kind of cool.
Oh boy! I'm riding the emotional trains lately. I'm very aware my healing work is my own - but practicing staying out of other people's busy minds, worrying about what they are thinking or doing - is still a bit of a habit for me. I've been reading this book on mindfulness. A couple of the "tips" that I really REALLY want to practice are, 1) watch the fantasies. Watch how having fantasies are distracting. At first - I was a bit taken a back. I love fantasies. Don't take those away! And then I read a little bit more about the practice. Then I questioned myself- wait - do I really love them? They are a distraction from being in the present moment. The book doesn't say stop entirely. The book doesn't suggest you step away from dreams and goals. But I think I get it. It's talking about fantasizing about having another life or being away from the one you are living. And when you think about it - pulling away from your life - is like pulling away from yourself - and that would lead to anger, frustration, anxiety and emotional pain. Right? Again - I will have those dreams and goals. Those get me stirred up to taking action and being present. But to go off to some land that pulls me away from who I really am - hmmmm….I'm going to look further into this practice. 2) Dammit - forgot the second one I learned. Wow. Something tells me I wasn't exactly present when I read that chapter. Okay - that will be a reread. I was thinking I could just run to the book and read the chapter and tell you about it. But I wanted to be honest. I forgot. I forgot what I read and learned last night. Ooopsies.
All right- I can still work on the "being in the moment" practice - being aware when my mind trails off to a fantasy. I think that will take a while. I fantasize a lot. Now that I'm aware - I see how much I do it. So, maybe step one is enough for now.
I didn't take any selfies or pictures for this blog. But I did find a sweet picture I found on Instagram. I saw the signs and it just made me feel good. So I figured - I would post it and share with you.