I did a podcast this morning and the topic was "Be Fabulously You". By the way, this is my 100th podcast.
I've spent my whole life struggling with embarrassment and shame to be myself. I've realized a huge part of my anxiety disorder was because I lived in shame, fear, and embarrassment to be me.
I'm on the tail end of my forties. Wow! I'm almost 50 years old! Whoooeee!
It's time I stood tall and proud of ME! I want to be able to get dressed, fix my hair, put on makeup, go all natural...whatever it is...and feel good about it. I want to stand with pride - with my head held high - feeling good - no matter what "look" I choose to portray to the world - as long as I feel good about ME.
So while I'm still in my forties - I'm going to try out all the looks I like. I'm going to try different makeup, different hair styles, different clothes - all different looks. I'm going to take pictures and write about the process. It won't be easy. I also need to shed self criticism.
I want this experiment - or process - to be a loving one.
I want to be kind to myself as I do this.
Okay, so to begin. I've taken an "all natural" selfie. I need to post this quick before I pull back because there is no filter on this picture. I have no makeup on. I haven't dyed my hair in a LONG time. So there's gray in there. This is the effortless, throw clothes on and "bun it" look. I'm wearing a t-shirt that my friend gave me yesterday. It was her 97 year old dad's shirt. She bought him some new ones and she gave some nice blue men's softie t-shirts to me.
So....without further ado - here's Rebecca. 49 and about to embark on the "I like me"....wait "I love me" journey of self discovery.
Oh and also to play dress up.
I decided to add one more picture to the end of this blog. Later in the day, I decided to add my comfortable signature hat (it's a comfortable cotton black baseball hat, with a cute button I bought in a coffee shop - it has a cute stegosaurus on it and the words "Everything will be fine" written in handwriting), some mascara, and some light pink lipstick. It's still my casual, not a lot of effort, look. But hey....this is all about exploring and seeing what fits.
So here I am...…