Wow. I actually wrote that. I wrote I am beautiful. Hey, grab a pen. Write it down. Read it to yourself. How does that feel? I hope it feels fantastic. For me? It wasn't easy to write at all. But I'm sitting up tall and I'm did it anyway. It's getting easier to say. I needed to write that down - yep - as the title. I just spoke about this just this morning on my podcast. I had to do it.
Here's today's podcast:
Can you relate to how hard it is to write those words? I mean, I can say them in the moment - I can even write them here - but the flood of feelings and thoughts that rise to the surface - Egads! (like my dad used to say).
If you follow me on Instagram or Twitter - you may have noticed all these old photos I've been posting. I look at myself as a young girl, knowing all that I went through, knowing how hard on was on myself, and I look at her, dressed up, smiling - and I think - oh sweetie - you were beautiful. But I never really thought so. Sure there were moments I would think, okay, I feel good, only to get with a crowd (even with family and friends) and begin to self doubt, compare, feel insecure, embarrassed - and just allow my self esteem to scooch down further and further like a kid trying to hide so the teacher won't call on her. You know?
But now? I've been listening to Mental Girl. She flies by my side. She says "Hello girl! Let's admire you. Let's embrace and honor you. Let's look at you - and compliment you." So I do.
I took a walk this morning and I felt good. I felt that dream really sparked something. (Oh I speak about it in my podcast - now you need to listen. heh heh) It's a lovely day. It was a bit brisk this morning. I could have used a jacket. But the sun was out. I warmed up as I picked up speed. Fall is just around the corner. I can feel it. I'm getting excited. Fall is MY month. I was born in fall. So fall and I have a wonderful delicious relationship.
I ended up taking this selfie. Now it really is a big deal that I wrote I am beautiful up there at the top. Because of course, I started pick this picture apart. But then - I stopped. I said - nope. I'm not going to do that. That's me!
I'm excited to say I did end up ordering products from Botanic Organic. I really love their products. I highly recommend you check them out. I'm sure any of the staff will help you with any questions - but if you like - tell Nancy - the founder - that I sent you. She is a sweetheart. You can also check them out on Instagram. She recently posted some wonderful videos about how their products are made. Here is the link to their site.
I'm still sorting through a lot of pictures and memories. But I did organize my side of the garage. I'm really proud of myself. It took longer than expected. But I got through it.
So what's the next project? I recently read this article that my grandmother had saved - I found it in one the boxes in the garage. It was about getting things done. The suggestion was to write your list out - with about 5 - 10 things you want to get done. Then slowly check them off throughout the day. If you even just get one thing done - that's an accomplishment. I think it's the act of writing it down - and feeling yourself check off the list - that gives you extra validation. I should try that. How about this on the list. Say I'm beautiful. (I can cross that off right now!)
All right! Onward! Forward!