Wooosh! A lot of thoughts and feelings this morning.
I wanted to sleep in, but I couldn't. But that's OK. I got up, stretched, slathered on some self care and got out. It was sprinkling a little outside. Kind of nice. So, I grabbed an umbrella, stepped out, and I did a podcast.
I wanted to share with you my latest drawing experiment. Ooooh, this one was interesting. It was not easy at all. It was called Vase/Face Drawing. Do you remember seeing those drawings that ask you if you can see a face or a vase? An old lady or a young lady? It just depends on what your eyes focus on. Well...they gave two profiles of a face. One for left handers. And one for right handers. I'm a right hander. The first exercise was to trace their drawing and say out loud the parts of the face as you're drawing around the profile. The next step was to draw the mirror image of that on the other side on your own. Now you might think - easy. And sure - for you it might be. But it wasn't for me. Luckily - in the book - they said - there might be some challenging parts and to just breathe through them and figure out how to continue. Which is what I did.
So I've included my picture here. I am the drawing on the right. I've included both the pencil part and when I colored it in. I enjoy coloring in on a copy a few days later. For this one - I just colored in the vase.
But seriously - as I was drawing - trying to match the picture on the left - it was like I forgot how to draw a face. I was looking in a sort of "mirror" and trying to draw. I had a challenge around the nose and the lips. As you can see on my picture they are a little higher.
Now the cool thing about doing this project - is if I find myself criticizing or becoming uncomfortable with my art - I try to quickly shake it off. I'm doing it! I am doing this project to the best of my ability and whatever comes out - so it is! It is very freeing.
I was talking to a friend about this workbook. I told her it is really doing something positive, uplifting and empowering to my brain. I've been hard on myself. I tend to rush through things. Sometimes I'm sloppy. I get frustrated easily. And my memory of the past is sketchy sometimes. I remember the bad stuff a little bit more - unfortunately. However - this project is moving things around in this dome of mine. I'm doing it! I'm seeing consistent action. I'm seeing consistent work. I'm seeing some cool art. So it's stretching my brain enough to open up some new pathways. I'm also now starting to remember more of the good stuff.
Taking a deep breath right now. Feeling good.
You know it's OK to feel good about yourself. Okay - you may know that. And good for you. But if you, like me, were used to some self "meanness" - realizing this feels pretty darn good.
Thanks for being here.
Thanks for your support.
I'm glad you are here.