It sure was foggy this morning. I posted a video on Instagram of my morning walk. Here it is:
It looked so much foggier in person. I will post some pictures in my Clickity Clak section. It was foggy yesterday morning too and I had a great time walking in it. The neighborhood was quiet. I walked through the streets in the gray damp fog. It was nice. This morning was even thicker - like pea soup! Yes, I said it. I had to. It really was! I was walking and at one point - I got a little spooked. Well, Halloween is coming, I've been watching Horror movies, I let my mind get away from me for a second - wow! That mind of mine can certainly take a thought and run with it. But I grabbed it and said come on! We're safe and this is relaxing - and pay attention - there are lots of cars around.
I saw kids walking to school. I saw neighbors. It was nice. Fog does have a smell. There is a fog smell. I can't explain it. It's woodsy, cold, damp - but those adjectives don't quite describe it. If you come up with a word to describe the smell of fog - please - let me know.
I did my podcast. Here it is:
It was fun doing my podcast in the fog. I felt like I had you guys with me.
Well, it's Monday. Oh...I'll tell you this...I'm about to turn 50. Yes! Right now I'm 49, and I'm enjoying the last bit of my 40's. But 50! I'm still working on my "beauty care" project. I took a bit of a pause - but I'll go back. I'm still using my products from Botanic Organic. Again, if you haven't already, check them out. It's a good company - family owned. I know the owner now and she's wonderful. They have good natural products.botanicorganic.com/
I'm still trying to figure out how to get my hair to cooperate, which clothes really feel good, and to pick good makeup. But I'll get there. The one thing I managed to do before I turn 50 - and this makes me not only happy - but to me is the most important thing - I like me. I've been taking care of me. I'm a more confident, relaxed, calm person. Now that doesn't mean I'm all Zen and have perfected everything. Oh no. I've loads to do. But this means - I care about who I am - I like what's inside - and I'm going to continue to take care of myself. That's a lot. This is a HUGE leap for me. I've been waiting for this feeling for a LONG time. I was worried at one point I would never get here. But I did - I have. Mental Girl swooped in and really saved me. Thank you Mental Girl. Thank you Rebecca. Thank you my true, best Self - for hanging in there all this time.
It doesn't matter how long it took me - it doesn't matter how many times I had to get up and try again- it doesn't matter that I still have more healing to do - it doesn't matter if other people figured out how to like themselves way before I did - I'm here NOW.