This is one of my favorite t-shirts. I love the color. It's a great red for me. (Hey, that's a big step. I complimented myself) It makes feel good. It's super soft. I love coffee. I like the message. Espresso Yourself. Express yourself. That's what we all need to do - more often. Now hold up....I don't mean express yourself with hatred, violence, cruelty - any kind of harm to yourself or others. Nope. I mean - find yourself. Find your true self. What makes you tick? What gives you that twinkle in your eye, that lift in your posture, that puff in your chest - that feeling - that says - oh.....I need to start singing. I'm feeling good. Or....let's say you're not feeling so good. You can still find your tune. You can find your voice. You can begin loving self talk - so you can find solutions and heal the hurt inside you.
I am doing a lot of healing work with a therapist and Ursula who does Internal Family Systems. You can check out the section I have on my website called Unveiling with Ursula. It's been quite a ride. All of this - takes a lot of work.
One of the wonderful things that is coming out of all this self awareness, healing work - is I have a desire to express myself more. I don't hide as much in the shadows peering out into the world. Sure, there are time it gets to "peoplely" (I know - not a word) out there and it's uncomfortable for me to sort through all the energy. But...I'm learning to start to nurture those feelings - call for my best Self to come forward - and help me make the right decision to propel me forward. It's a nice gentle push. It's not like an aggressive rocket that throws me out. It's a - you can do it - it's ok. I've got your back feeling.
Okay, so self discovery - what do I have going on today? I still haven't managed to put on makeup yet. The only thing I've purchased so far is a new lipstick, that I still haven't opened. I think I really do like going out all natural. For the most part, it just feels easier. I'm a face toucher. So wearing makeup can be challenging if I'm wiping my face - which I do - a lot. I need to work on that habit. It's like biting your nails. It's not a great thing to do. I'm surprised with myself, being a germaphobe, that I haven't nipped this habit in the bud. My hands aren't clean all the time. Yuck. All that dirt. Blech!
Recently I saw a tweet that said something along these lines -there is NO woman who would go out without their makeup. I quickly wrote back - me? I do it most of the time. I felt it was a challenge. The person said, I dare you to show yourself without makeup. Well, this person didn't see my following tweet. I took a picture with no makeup, and before I allowed my critical self to pick apart the picture - I posted it. (Wow that sentence had the flow of Peter Piper Picked a Peck of Pickled Peppers) I got some likes. Not a lot. I was glad I did it. I felt brave. The person who posted didn't see it. (seriously I'm NOT doing this on purpose - I did it again. What's with all the P words)Oh well? I gotta say - that's me. Don't dare me. I might do it.
Oh, I did put on some sunscreen. Yes, I protect my face.
I did a podcast this morning. The topic was clarity. Clarity is VERY important when expressing yourself. You don't want to waste all your energy and have people guess what you are saying. It's hard. I find myself skipping around my true feelings sometimes. But I'm getting better at it. It takes a lot of practice. Here's today's podcast if you missed it.
How about this? This morning, I went to the market and bought bread. When I got home, and pulled out a couple slices, for some reason I didn't like the way it looked. At first, I went to an old pattern, and began to beat myself up. I thought I was being OCD. I began to have angry feelings. But then.....I gave myself a time out. I took a deep breath. I got back in the car, and returned it. I didn't give them too much of a "wordy" explanation and apologies. I just said - there's something about this bread, I don't like. I paid for it. It wasn't cheap. In the past, I might have even thrown it away. But today? Nope. I expressed my feelings and got my money back.
Take a deep breath right now. How does that feel? Think about yourself. Do you have clarity about who you are?
It's okay if you don't. I'm not suggesting I've got it all done. I'm just saying - think about it.Do you express yourself, using your best self, your clear and concise true voice using clarity to communicate to others? (Wow that was a tongue twister - now it's the C words) Finding your true self, expressing yourself, finding clarity - it all takes time.
Don't you deserve that? I think you do. I know I do. If I do, than you do.....too.
All right....time to continue on with the day. Onward! Espresso Yourself!!!!