Oh dear. I've had the crankies. I've been in a good mood too. I can shift back and forth. It's just when the crankies come...oh dear. I can feel myself just getting hot and bothered over stuff. I've had to check myself a couple times. What's up Rebecca? You really want to commit to all of that? Is that really the direction you need to take - right now - over that? Sometimes - I say yes! Yes I do. Other times - I'm looking at the situation and I see there is truth to be uncovered- I wait - and breathe - and I think this is an opportunity for some growth and I don't want to miss it.
I speak a bit about the crankies in my podcast:
Also I did a short video that I posted on Instagram:
I've been reading this great book about mindfulness. It's called 'The Mindful Code' by Donald Altman. I highly recommend it. I read it once on the Kindle. There was just so much information to take in, I had to buy the book in actual book form as well. I'm really glad I did. It takes time to learn and practice all of this stuff. It takes time to shed my old ways - and build and practice new tools that actually - when I use them - even taking small steps forward - they do work.
I also read this great book called 'How To Think' by Alan Jacobs. Another recommended book if you want to keep your mind open and get in the mindset that there is "always" something new to learn. I really enjoyed it. It actually has helped me with the crankies. Because the reason I'm having the crankies, is I get irritated with people. I don't understand them sometimes. I just don't understand some of the mindsets around here. But in this book, it talks about opening yourself to learning - understanding that everyone has their own mindset - and before I head off into an argument - especially a heated one - take a minute. Think about it.
I'm not perfect. I never say I am. If anything, I've walked around for years feeling like I'm less then, or I just don't get this "life thing" and I use to feel I was doing it all wrong. But now - I do like myself more. And...even though the crankies come up - it's not attractive - I'm dealing with it. I like who I am. I'm actually doing a lot right. I'm trying to be more communicative - apologize when I can - and have open discussions when possible. I also practice being silent until I can calmly speak.
I love the holiday season. But it can also be a time of emotions. There are expectations, feelings of competition, old wounds open up, family arguments - and then - there are deep soothing breaths, acknowledging my blessings, feeling gratitude for all the things I do have, letting go of the comparison game, letting go of old past stuff that doesn't serve me any more, not having family arguments - being open to non violent loving communication.
Take it easy on yourself. Mental Girl is here - in your corner.