I pick these topics when I set out for my walk and to do my podcast, but little do I know….I'm going to have some practice ahead of me. I didn't know I would have it so soon though.
Wooosh! I was so eager to get my chores done, so I could come back and write a lovely, upbeat blog. I got home and fixed myself a little breakfast snack. I toasted the bread, put on the almond butter and fig jam - and took a bite. I was putting stuff away and dropped the almond butter. No biggie right? Oh yes is was a big deal. The lid wasn't on tight. Almond stuff everywhere, me cursing - not communicating using my best self voice. Dammit! An opportunity to rise to the occasion and I threw a tantrum. My thoughts got away with me. I was pissed now I had to clean up the mess. I was started to have OCD thoughts about the whole thing. Maybe I wasn't meant to it? Maybe it was rotten? Maybe you are careless? Why didn't you check that the kid was closed? Look at this mess! It looked like poo! Then that thought took hold and I was just getting grossed out. Then I looped back and started the angry thoughts all over again. Oh well. Moving on. I'm now "communicating" to you - that I'm flawed and have my unattractive moments. It's just...I was feeling so in the groove, you know? Wiping up oily Almond butter is not easy.
I'm thinking about changing the tone of my podcasts - make them a little goofier - talk about stuff - but maybe focus on something that happened - how I feel or felt about it. I could have done a podcast all about the Almond Butter debacle. I will ponder my choices over the weekend. But please feel free to comment your thoughts and feedback. I know some of you listen to my podcasts, and that really makes me feel good. Thank you.
I took a selfie this morning wearing a old sleeveless top I got a while back. (Whisper: I'm going to put it up - but I'm a little critical. Where am I looking? I still can't remember where the camera is!) Deep breath. Back to the shirt. I'm not that into wearing things with the American flag on it. For some reason - wearing something with the American Flag has always felt weird to me. I don't know. I guess - I feel there is an arrogance that goes with the flag - that makes me uncomfortable. But this particular shirt - I liked - because it has a peace sign. That's the way I feel. I want to be at peace with everyone. It's a soft and very comfortable shirt - but I do still feel a bit.....I don't know.....it's just weird.....it's got a connotation to it that is stuck in my head. I think I'll keep the shirt - but wear it inside, until I can wear it with confidence. I don't know. Maybe I'm thinking too much about it. I live here. I love America. But I also don't want....oh forget it. There is a peace sign on it.
All right - so the topic to work on today - communication. If I'm communicating with calm and clarity - I should be all right. Right? Ok - my track record after the Almond Butter spill got a little rocky - but I can turn this around. I have that ability. I will do it!
I think it's time to use my Botanic Organic products - clean my face - start over - get a fresh start. They always make me feel good. There is such a good feeling using products like these- when you know where they came from - who makes them - and I have such a good feeling because I've made friends with the founder now - that I think of her when I'm enjoying them. I think of how sweet she is - and the products - well they make me happy.
Okay. Deep breath.
Happy Friday all!
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