Three people yesterday commented that I look as if I'm glowing! I think that's amazing. I thank Botanic Organic's Raspberry and Green Tea face moisturizer. Seriously! I didn't tell the first two complimenters (I don't think it's a word - but I'm keepin' it in) that I was trying new products. They saw me and said "You're glowing." The third person was someone from Twitter, who agreed I was glowing, after my post - ok I was bragging a little - about all the wonderful products I'm trying. That felt really good. Oh, I forgot about the fourth (there was another Twitter commentator), who wanted to make sure I wasn't knocked up. No. I'm not.
I used the cleansing oil again last night to take off my makeup and it's still working really well. I'm amazed with this stuff! I've used several cleansers - nothing works like this - and makes my face feels this good. I don't feel stripped of my "needed" facial oils. I don't feel tight after I use it. I just feel - clean and the makeup comes off. Most of the time, when I go natural, it's because I dread taking all the makeup off later. Now? I'm ok. If I have this stuff, I think the stress will be off me - as well as the makeup at the end of the day.
Okay, so this morning, I woke up and I wasn't feel tip top. I was feeling sluggish, achy, grumpy and....what other adjectives can I pull out? I didn't have pep. I wanted to stay in bed. But then my mind was conjuring up dark thoughts and I figured no more of that. It's time to get up.
So I did. I did my morning routine. I took my vitamins, did my stretchs, and centered myself. I headed out for my walk, did a podcast this morning and spoke a little bit about it. Here it is:
After my walk, I still just didn't have the get up and go to do any chores. I decided to go get a cup of coffee at one of my local favorite cafes. It was so nice. I walked in and the woman behind the counter knew my coffee drink. She calls me darlin' when I come in, but I thought she did that with everyone. But she made a point of knowing my drink this morning. It's nice to be seen. It's a really nice feeling when someone remembers you. When I got home, I ate a little homemade oatmeal, and sat down to write this blog.
I still don't have a lot of pep - but my mind is settling a little bit. I feel.....as I said in the podcast....human. I'm not feeling as dark and mopey and grumpy. I feel pleased with myself that instead of staying in bed and allowing the dark thoughts to consume me, I got up and started the day, not knowing which direction my mind would take me. This is neat. My mind is on my side. It is saying, you're human. You are going to have ups and downs with emotions. It's OK. Just take it one step at a time. And that's what I doing.
I had taken a few pictures yesterday, while I was glowing, and this morning I played with the app a little coming up with this:
I think it's fun. It's my laundry from yesterday. I was out walking and went by this apartment complex that has these lion statues on the wall. They remind me to be courageous. I took a selfie with one of them. I did a little yoga yesterday when I was feeling low energy (took a selfie). I need to remind myself to stretch a little when I feel low energy throughout the day, which is common for me. It really does help. Then the other picture was a close up selfie.
Now, let me explain a little about my nervousness with selfies. Taking selfies makes me nervous. Especially the body shot I took in the middle. I'm working on this. I'm a tiny person. I'm healthy. I'm just tiny. But for some reason I have been attracting comments about how thin I am. They are not nice comments. I'll be smiling, sharing something fun and light hearted, and someone will go into a lecture about how I need to eat. It's hurtful. They say, "Are you ok? You're so skinny." It makes me feel self conscious about my body. It's gotten to a point, where I was getting embarrassed about how thin I am. I've spoken to doctors, who said I'm fine, healthy - my weight is normal for my height. So now? I'm trying to embrace it just like I am with my hair, beauty routine and mental health. It's all part of liking and loving myself - AS IS.
We all should embrace ourselves, appreciate ourselves, AS IS. If we want to change or improve - that's fine. But when we look at others - at least this is something I want to continue to practice - look at them with appreciation - allow people to walk their own path - be who they want to be. When we look at ourselves, we need to honor who we are today. We have the right to love ourselves just as we are.
And come on - remember the ole' saying: If you don't have something nice to say - pipe it! No, that's not it. But you know what I'm talking about. Isn't it time we just looked at and admired each other as if we are each different works of art? No one is better than you. No one is winning. We are just being...….human.