I pick these topics when I set out for my walk and to do my podcast, but little do I know….I'm going to have some practice ahead of me. I didn't know I would have it so soon though.
Wooosh! I was so eager to get my chores done, so I could come back and write a lovely, upbeat blog. I got home and fixed myself a little breakfast snack. I toasted the bread, put on the almond butter and fig jam - and took a bite. I was putting stuff away and dropped the almond butter. No biggie right? Oh yes is was a big deal. The lid wasn't on tight. Almond stuff everywhere, me cursing - not communicating using my best self voice. Dammit! An opportunity to rise to the occasion and I threw a tantrum. My thoughts got away with me. I was pissed now I had to clean up the mess. I was started to have OCD thoughts about the whole thing. Maybe I wasn't meant to it? Maybe it was rotten? Maybe you are careless? Why didn't you check that the kid was closed? Look at this mess! It looked like poo! Then that thought took hold and I was just getting grossed out. Then I looped back and started the angry thoughts all over again. Oh well. Moving on. I'm now "communicating" to you - that I'm flawed and have my unattractive moments. It's just...I was feeling so in the groove, you know? Wiping up oily Almond butter is not easy.
I'm thinking about changing the tone of my podcasts - make them a little goofier - talk about stuff - but maybe focus on something that happened - how I feel or felt about it. I could have done a podcast all about the Almond Butter debacle. I will ponder my choices over the weekend. But please feel free to comment your thoughts and feedback. I know some of you listen to my podcasts, and that really makes me feel good. Thank you.
I took a selfie this morning wearing a old sleeveless top I got a while back. (Whisper: I'm going to put it up - but I'm a little critical. Where am I looking? I still can't remember where the camera is!) Deep breath. Back to the shirt. I'm not that into wearing things with the American flag on it. For some reason - wearing something with the American Flag has always felt weird to me. I don't know. I guess - I feel there is an arrogance that goes with the flag - that makes me uncomfortable. But this particular shirt - I liked - because it has a peace sign. That's the way I feel. I want to be at peace with everyone. It's a soft and very comfortable shirt - but I do still feel a bit.....I don't know.....it's just weird.....it's got a connotation to it that is stuck in my head. I think I'll keep the shirt - but wear it inside, until I can wear it with confidence. I don't know. Maybe I'm thinking too much about it. I live here. I love America. But I also don't want....oh forget it. There is a peace sign on it.
All right - so the topic to work on today - communication. If I'm communicating with calm and clarity - I should be all right. Right? Ok - my track record after the Almond Butter spill got a little rocky - but I can turn this around. I have that ability. I will do it!
I think it's time to use my Botanic Organic products - clean my face - start over - get a fresh start. They always make me feel good. There is such a good feeling using products like these- when you know where they came from - who makes them - and I have such a good feeling because I've made friends with the founder now - that I think of her when I'm enjoying them. I think of how sweet she is - and the products - well they make me happy.
Okay. Deep breath.
Happy Friday all!
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I didn't have a topic for today's podcast. I don't really have a new topic for today's blog. I'm winging it! I usually do - 'wing my life'. Wait, can you say wing. Is the word and phrase just winging it? Oh who cares. I hope you know what I mean.
I was thinking about it this morning as I set out for my walk - recorded my podcast - that aren't we all winging it? I mean, sure we set out with a plan sometimes, we plan a party, our grocery list, our school, careers, and we sure hope everything goes as desired. But does it? Does it always? How can anyone possibly control everything - isn't there always a chance we will find ourselves "winging it" at some point in the day? I wing it all the time. Okay, if it's not a word - it is one now.
I just realized I haven't made up any words lately. I was doing that for a while. Okay - hold on - how about wingdingdoodle? ( meaning - you just fly by the seat of your pants - because you know you can't control everything - and you sure hope it all turns out well). That's a long definition.
I winged it today. After my walk - ooops - forgot to include today's podcast - hold on... -
There! That's taken care of - now I may continue...
I'm in a bit of a goofy mood. I'm not sure where it came from because I've been thinking a lot lately and the worry bug was noodling me a little (I keep telling it - shoo! Shoo!). But I feel alive. It's not a bad feeling. I mean it's a little weird, because I'm feeling - loosey goosey, which way will the wind blow, okay mind could you let me have this nice goofy feeling - having run on sentences circling my mind that don't make sense - mood. Deep breath.
Hang in there with me.
Okay - let's focus on my Botanic Organic project for a moment. I didn't try another product yet. I did use the Tangerine & Lemon cleansing oil last night - even though I didn't wear makeup yesterday - and it felt just as good. Of course - you can use it anytime. But it REALLY does take makeup off. It's like magic. I used the Cucumber & Calendula nutrient mist - which is still such a perk up to my face. I also used the Calendula Blossom and Rose Night cream moisturizer before I went to bed. Whisper: Okay - I winged it a little with the products yesterday. But guess what? Still lovely. But of course - follow instructions - the products reveal better results. You know, I need to say - I was off my game yesterday with my skin care regime and I didn't use the Chamomile & Lavender Facial Cleansing Spray and the Raspberry & Green Daily Defense moisturizer. My face felt it. At the end of the day - I actually felt my face telling me - you forgot something. I missed it! I still need to try the cleansing grains - and the bath salts. Now, I'm dragging my feet cleaning out my bathtub. It needs a lot of muscle power - and I haven't had much of that lately. You know that intense scrub scrub scrubbing? Yuck. That really needs to be done before I try a lovely soak. My bathtub is old and in need of some TLC. It just doesn't make me feel like getting in it. But I'm going to see what I can do - and get back to you on that.
Ooooh, I did manage to clean out a couple drawers. Nothing got thrown out - but there was a little bit of organization accomplished. Whisper: I tend to toss stuff in drawers at some point - and all the clothes get mangled. I know. I know! I told you I was a work in progress.
Today's selfie is going to be one of my feet. No, not really. My sneaker toes are in the picture. But the picture is fabulous. I posted it yesterday on Instagram. It makes me happy. I came across this sweet message on my walk yesterday and I think it applies to today too. Heck, let's apply it to every day! Here it is:
I think it's fantastic. I made it super big so you can see. (Whisper: I don't make pictures with my face in it that big. But this one, yes! ) As I write this right now - I need to tell a story. I took this picture yesterday, as I mentioned. Later that morning I took my son to swimming class. When we got there, the teacher wasn't there. The teacher forgot! Now...these things get my knickers in a twist. I was a little irritated. For one thing, wtf? I confirmed this class with him and I couldn't believe it - he just forgot. Grrrr. He felt bad, and apologized. (insert: Winging it moment) Luckily, a woman who runs the front desk, let us in, just so my son could practice. I was thrilled. I felt the time wasn't going to be wasted. I mean, we were here, my son was in his swimming gear. But my son said no, he didn't want to be in the pool without his teacher. He felt embarrassed. I encouraged him to get in. (Okay - I was a bit pushy. I really wanted him to have his exercise - and also I felt this was a teachable moment - for both of us - turning a bummer moment into something good). He and I went back and forth for a while - but I won out. I convinced him to get in. I told him - he would see once he was in there - doing his thing - he would feel great. Well guess what? I was right and he told me I was right. Oh yeah - moms - you know that feeling after you've "mama beared" a situation - and you feel a little guilty - but then it turns out you were right - and you did the right thing - and you feel really good about your parenting skills? Oh that feels great! Anyway - he had a great time. After he exercised he wanted to stay in longer to practice....hold on to your butts....handstands! He was having such a great happy handstand moment - in such bliss - practicing over and over and over again. I gave that to him. Well, he gave that to himself. I shouldn't take all the credit. But I helped. I just thought about that beautiful moment after attaching this picture to this blog. It makes me smile.
I hope you all have many happy handstand moments throughout your day. I hope you have those delicious AHA moments - those yummy moments when your decisions are spot on - things flow - and you feel.....wingdingdoodley!
(Oh a quick p.s. here - if you have some extra time - may I ask you, if you have some extra time, would you post a comment? No pressure. I would love that. If you have had a wingdingdoodle moment you want to share - please post it. Hey, if you have a topic you would like me to consider discussing on my podcast - post it. If you just want to say hi ya wingdingdoodler - feel free to comment a quick hello! I would love the mail.
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I believe most of us get up in the morning, with the best intentions, and say, how can I make this a good day? Or how can I get through this day with my challenges? Or how can I make the world a better place.? I think we set out wanting to conquer it all but get a little deflated when we may not get it ALL done.
I woke up this morning, did my routine, stretched, gave myself my motivation self care loving talk, and went out for my walk. I did a podcast - topic - acceptance.
I got home, grabbed my grocery bags and set out for the market. Now I was feeling a little nervous. I was feeling a little overwhelmed with my thoughts. I know! Even after my podcast. But it's not like I have these mind blowing realizations and everything just falls in place. I have these AHA moments and then I practice the new "learning" material over and over and over again throughout the day when different things come up. Oh since I woke up this morning, I've been irritated, nervous, and slightly grumpy. I'm not perfect. While I was writing this blog, I kept getting interrupted from family and I felt like a dog with a bone. Hey! I'm writing! Then I realize the humor that I'm writing about acceptance and kindness and I'm barring teeth. So I have to go at it again - take deep breaths - accept there's more inner work to do. I'm happy to say, I've also had lovely moments this morning - smiles, lovely connections, and feeling appreciative about things. Those are good.
I did my marketing and when I got up to the cashier, he and I had such a lovely exchange. I always bag my own groceries. I like to do it. But this guy said, thank you. He was so relieved not to have to do it. I told him - heck - you have all day - I don't mind helping. Plus, for me, I get to put them in the bags to make it easier to put away when I get home. He felt it was kind. We spoke about kindness. We spoke about just wanting to do the right thing - show a little kindness - make a little difference. I told him it feels easier to be kind than mean. It takes a lot of energy to be mean and angry. He lit up. I said it's nice to find others who get it. I really appreciate these exchanges with people. It makes me feel like there are a lot of us out there who just want to feel connected.
Okay, it's funny. I took a selfie on my walk. I forgot about the picture until just now. I had a little fun with the app. I just love this thing. I looked at the picture and the shirt I chose to wear today. It made me smile. So I say to you - Go SAVE THE DAY! Do it YOUR WAY! Do it with kindness.
I feel, in all this self discovery work I'm doing, acceptance is important. We can't change everyone. We can't push ourselves beyond what we can legitimately do. But we CAN try these baby steps of accepting who we are, what we CAN do, what we appreciate in others - and how we CAN make a difference.
Acceptance. It's a big word. It's a big task . But it has big rewards.
Well, top of a Tuesday to ya!
I woke up this morning a little later than usual. I still was able to enjoy the overcast morning, a nice walk, and a trip to the store. Okay, the store part wasn't that much fun. I went to this health food store close to me. It's too expensive to do any major shopping - but I go there to get a few things. But I have to gear myself up! The shoppers in there aren't that friendly. These folks are suppose to be healthy people - but the energy is grumpy, angry, frustrated - and they want you out of their way. Needless to say, I tried to stay in my bubble, gather my goods and high tail it out of there. I was going to head home, make myself some coffee, and join you guys - my village of sweet people who read my blogs. Hello you!
All right - so today's topic for my podcast is patience. Isn't that interesting - because at any given moment this morning - I've needed to pull that out of my hat. (Oh yeah, I've had some grumpy moments this morning) Okay so here's today's podcast:
Before I sat down to write this blog - I went to try another product of Botanic Organic. I wanted to try the Pomegranate Serum. I emailed Nancy yesterday to let her know I tried the facial mist. I just used the mist yesterday. She provided me with a little bit more information about how the mist works along with the Pomegranate & Argan Antioxidant Oil Serum -. Here's what Nancy says:
The Lemon Verbena and Comfrey Mist is not just a mist to refresh your skin. It actually contains licorice root extract which helps to calm redness as it's anti-inflammatory and it helps to brighten skin. Licorice root is also an antioxidant, so it's great for just caring for your skin in general. The hydrosols in our mists are all ones that help to calm and repair skin so they bring additional benefits. Be sure to blend the Pomegranate Serum with a few sprays of the mist before applying. I mix them in my hand and then apply right after cleansing and before applying the Daily Defense moisturizer with the zinc. Your skin will thank you. :-)
It's a lovely mix - the two together and then I applied the daily moisturizer, which has become one of my favorites. It's so light and nice. I tend to get overwhelmed with instructions. I know, I'm a work in progress. This is something I've been dealing with for a long time. If you give me a recipe, I'll change it. I'll alter it, in some way. Again - I'm admitting it. I'm working on it. So...needless to say, I spritzed some of the mist in my hand over the serum and applied it. I followed instructions. It was lovely. The serum doesn't feel greasy on my face. The scent is lovely and stimulating. I like it. I'm so glad I did it the way she told me to do it. Hey, progress.
This whole process trying these new skin care products has been such a delight. I wrote a little something on Instagram about it. I'll say it again here. I emailed a lot of companies asking for samples in exchange for a review. Nancy at Botanic Organic was the only one who said yes. She took a chance on me. I'm a small operation. I have a little blog, I wrote a book, and I have my website. But she went ahead and took a chance, and now not only have a met a new friend, found out about some great products, but this kind of thing just thrills me and reminds me - people are good out there. Check out Botanic Organic. You will be happy you did. Oh and tell them I sent you.
Last night, I decided to take a silly selfie when I was in a comfy state. That's my favorite state. The day coming to a close, I take off makeup, and put on some comfy clothes. Awwwww. I love those awwwww moments. I posted a picture on Instagram. This pic was runner up. Yes, this outfit gets a yes sticker. I have to say, I'm thrilled with myself that I'm getting more comfortable posting selfies. Okay, this morning I tried for "a just got up - why not take a quick pic while walking" - but I'll tell you - critical voice won out. It will happen. But this picture - I didn't over critique it. I even had fun again with the app on my phone. I'm having fun like a little girl with stickers, construction paper and all the colors in the crayon box.
So PATIENCE is the topic for today. I think my expectations get too high that people will behave a certain way, be able to respect my boundaries, and be consistent. It does require a lot of work to have the patience to repeat yourself as needed. People are in their own heads. They're doing their own thing. I've noticed, if I don't say anything, they will keep on barreling through. They figure - well - she's not bothered. But sometimes I AM bothered! Deep breath. I'm working on my wording, my stance, my confidence, and my pitch. Hi, I'm Rebecca. Sure I've got issues - but if you want to get close - these are things I require. If you don't want to - please don't agree to them. If you're bothered with me, please tell me. Don't use passive aggressive tactics to get me to do what you want - it won't work. I'll pull away. I want to get to know you. But I don't want to be you. I want to connect with you, hear you, and understand you. I also would like it to be reciprocated.
As I sort through my clothes, my "stuff", my thoughts and feelings - I keep pulling out the patience card. It will take time. I can't do it all in one sitting. And that's OK.
Oh here's my Instagram post from last night. Feel free to follow me. I'm a goofball on there and I have fun. :)
I'm having a little bit more fun with my blog and my self discovery adventure. I like this feeling. I think it's because I'm not putting a lot of pressure on myself. I'm taking small steps at a time.
Also, I'm declaring, "I'm allowed to have fun with of all this!"
A lot of my self discovery work has been challenging, tiring, scary at times, and has been a lot of mental work. I think it was supposed to be. I fought some mental dragons, I had to create my own warrior persona, and I had to work very hard at finding the right healer and counselor to help me move forward.
I did a podcast this morning - the topic was healing. Here it is:
All right....deep breath here....I haven't written about it much...yet...I know I will write more....but just so you can understand and hopefully relate to me a little more....oh for goodness sake, I need to get to the point. I get nervous talking about it. Earlier this year, I had a really big meltdown. It was huge. I hadn't had one like this in a long time. I cracked under the pressure, I what if'd myself to such a point that I was just frozen with fear, and I was really struggling. All of my issues came rising to the surface. I've dealt with panic disorder, OCD, agoraphobia, and social anxiety for a long time - it all came up. I'm talking well over 30 years of struggling and trying to figure myself out. Deep breath. I'm just not ready to get all into this right now. However, it's important to share with you that even though I'm on a self discovery, I want to romance myself, and figure out what I like mission - that doesn't mean it's been all roses - OR - that I have it all together all the time.
I'm feeling cheerful more often. I'm feeling vibrant. I'm feeling excited about life. I get out more. I get out alone. It's HUGE. I love that feeling. I haven't had that in a LONG time. Frankly, it still feels awkward at times, because my mind plays tricks and says don't get too happy. Life can be crap. This is old programming that I'm slowly dismantling. But it takes time. Okay....I got too serious - just not in the mood for that right now.
Deep breath. I love taking those. Take one with me if you like, here we go, 3...2...1....blow it out. Feels good, right?
All right, let's have a little fun. So about these fantastic products from Botanic Organic. So far, they are all wonderful. But I know, in my budget, I won't be able to afford them all. So after I'm done, I'll pick my favorites and start with those. I have a few more products to try but so far - I'm just head over heels for this Tangerine Cleansing Oil, the Daily Detox moisturizer, and the nice refreshing cleansing spray. They really perk my face up. If you read the last few blogs, you'll know, I've already had compliments about my "glow" from friends and family who didn't know I was trying new products.
The next product I tried, starting last night, was the Lemon Verbena & Comfrey Nutrient Mist. It's a spray on your face to make you feel refreshed. It's light. The scent isn't strong. It's nice. They say you can use it all day long. A spritz here and there.
I'm having a nice, slow, easing into it, process of weeding through my clothes, shoes, and other accoutrement. Now, don't judge me - but I bought a new hat. I know! I haven't even weeded through all my crap yet...but I couldn't resist. It's green! It's a really cute baseball cap. I love it. I don't have a pin for it yet. I usually put a pin in my hats. I took a selfie wearing one of my favorite t-shirts too. It's got a beautiful black cat with green eyes on it. Now this one is special to me. Plus it's soft and feels good on my skin. It reminds me and empowers me to stay away from silly superstitions. Black cats are magical and beautiful. This shirt looks like our beautiful cat Elizabeth who passed away a few years ago. She was a stray who entered our lives for just a little bit. She was beautiful and sweet. She had the most amazing beautiful green eyes. My son and husband bought me this shirt. It's soft, cute, and it's a keeper. This outfit got the yes sticker. The rest of what I'm wearing is just comfy. I applied a little mascara, light blush (of course I'm wearing my Botanic Organic Raspberry & Green Tea Daily Defense moisturizer), and some light pink lipstick. It's a casual look.
I'm trying to keep my blogs and podcasts short. I'm trying to keep these a little silly and relatable. It's as if we are chatting at a café and you're listening to my chitter chatter. I hope you enjoy them.
Thank you for visiting!
I'm trying to keep my expectations low and my awareness high. I think that sounds and feels better to me. To get through the day with a tad more ease, I think having the ability to be aware of my actions, reactions, environment, thoughts and feelings is a much better thing to hold on to than gripping the expectation about what is next on the agenda and holding on to high expectations.
I woke up this morning and headed out for my walk and did my podcast. Here it is:
I'm still having lots of fun with my box of goodies from Botanic Organic. I'm not through it all yet!
The next product I tried, last night, after my shower, was the Neroli Blossom & Blood Orange Oil. It's lovely. The scent perks your senses right up. I was a bit confused how to use it. It said to apply it before you towel dry. In my mind, I pictured standing there dripping dry - or applying it and then blotting with the towel - which then lead my mind to worrying I would wipe all the oil off on my towel. I'm really proud of myself. I didn't get embarrassed that I was struggling with the directions. I emailed Nancy at Botanic Organic. She said - go head and towel dry a little bit, make sure your body is a bit damp and then apply it on arms and legs and then let dry. So I did. It was lovely. It didn't feel thick like other oils I've used. I usually feel squeamish because I can feel the oil on my skin - then I worry it's getting all over everything. Oh...you know I have a worry mind right? If you read my book, Mental Girl, you may already know - I think - A LOT. But I'm really happy to say I worked through it all. Why? Well, for one thing, Nancy has been so sweet to email me back answering any questions I have about the products. She will for any of her customers. But also - because her products are made from non toxic organic stuff. So I feel safe. Okay, my mind still thinks a lot. That's me. I accept it.
All right, so my other project, going through my clothes and crap, is still coming along. I decided I'm also going to start posting more pictures on Instagram.
I'll do more posting there than blogging about it. I'll still blog from to time. But there are so many items to try out. So I'll use Instagram as a fun place to let loose. I took a picture (see down below) of me in my Mazel t-shirt. I love this shirt. My friend gave it to me. She said to wear it even though I'm not Jewish. It says Mazel - which is short for mazal tov, a Jewish phrase used to express congratulations for a happy and significant occasion or event. It makes me happy. It's a keeper. I have no makeup in this picture - sitting on top of our wooden coffee table - feeling - well - silly and happy. I think when you start your self discovery, self improvement, self love and self care project - well then Mazel says it all.
We should all congratulate ourselves on any accomplishments we do. Getting up in the morning. Mazel. Taking a deep breath. Mazel. Stretching. Mazel. Being responsible for your family and your life. Mazel. Look around you and find things that you can appreciate and say to yourself....well done! Mazel!
Okay, so I'm not bright eyed and bushy tailed but....wait....truth be told, I'm still achy, I don't feel back to my more peppy self - wait truth be told - I'm peppy in mind mostly - not in body...wait...oh for goodness sake! I'm just feeling good AS IS.
Yes, my right hand still really hurts. I'm having an arthritis flare up. It has gotten me down a few times, mostly when I try to open doors, open jars, reach for something, pick our little dog up - you know - when I USE MY RIGHT HAND TO FUNCTION!
However.....it is what it is and I'm trying to groove along with it.
Some good things have been happening too. It's funny - I realize I can choose to ONLY focus on the crappy stuff - and just live there and marinate in it - OR - I can say yeah, sure that....that....and THAT is annoying, frustrating, and sad - but this....this....and THIS....is pretty good, I feel blessed, and hey....I'm feeling happy in this moment.
I'm still using my new beauty care products. I've been emailing Nancy at Botanic Organic about my fun adventures with her products. She's enjoying this just as much as me. She says it thrills her to hear people's experiences and impressions of the products. So it's a win win for both of us. I'm having a great time with the products, it's been such a pleasure getting to know Nancy, I feel honored she shares her life stories with me, AND she says it makes her happy to hear me happy. I figure she gets more proof she's doing a great job and bringing joy to people's lives with good quality products. Gotta love all that right?
So this morning, I woke up and I was thinking good. How about that? I wasn't exactly feeling good - but I was thinking good. I was up, out and I did my podcast. Here it is:
Ooooooh, along with this fun project/adventure I'm having figuring out my beauty care routine - I'm going to start another one. I realize I have too much stuff. I have clothes I really don't like anymore, don't feel good on me, or I look at some of it and think - well I might wear that someday. But do I need or want all of this crap? So I'm going to trying clothes on, take a pic and show you all - you can give me your feedback - unless I've made a firm decision to toss or keep it.
So, I started with these red sunglasses. I like them because they are big and they provide sun coverage. I love the red. They make me feel sassy. But I'm not sure if they work for me. What do you think? Ooooh, I got a little scared. What if you hate them? Okay, even if you hate them, I'll keep them. I like them and they don't take up much room.
I found this fabulous quote on a fellow Instagramer's page and I just loved it. I felt like it matched what I was feeling and wrote about in yesterday's blog. So I added that in, pulled up the fun photo grid app and voila!
Not only do we deserve to give our bodies respect, our minds could use some of that too. We should allow ourselves to soak in the happy moments. We should respect ourselves enough to know, when things get rough or tough, that is really the time to beef up the self care and self love routine. That's my thinkin' and I'm stickin' with it!
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Three people yesterday commented that I look as if I'm glowing! I think that's amazing. I thank Botanic Organic's Raspberry and Green Tea face moisturizer. Seriously! I didn't tell the first two complimenters (I don't think it's a word - but I'm keepin' it in) that I was trying new products. They saw me and said "You're glowing." The third person was someone from Twitter, who agreed I was glowing, after my post - ok I was bragging a little - about all the wonderful products I'm trying. That felt really good. Oh, I forgot about the fourth (there was another Twitter commentator), who wanted to make sure I wasn't knocked up. No. I'm not.
I used the cleansing oil again last night to take off my makeup and it's still working really well. I'm amazed with this stuff! I've used several cleansers - nothing works like this - and makes my face feels this good. I don't feel stripped of my "needed" facial oils. I don't feel tight after I use it. I just feel - clean and the makeup comes off. Most of the time, when I go natural, it's because I dread taking all the makeup off later. Now? I'm ok. If I have this stuff, I think the stress will be off me - as well as the makeup at the end of the day.
Okay, so this morning, I woke up and I wasn't feel tip top. I was feeling sluggish, achy, grumpy and....what other adjectives can I pull out? I didn't have pep. I wanted to stay in bed. But then my mind was conjuring up dark thoughts and I figured no more of that. It's time to get up.
So I did. I did my morning routine. I took my vitamins, did my stretchs, and centered myself. I headed out for my walk, did a podcast this morning and spoke a little bit about it. Here it is:
After my walk, I still just didn't have the get up and go to do any chores. I decided to go get a cup of coffee at one of my local favorite cafes. It was so nice. I walked in and the woman behind the counter knew my coffee drink. She calls me darlin' when I come in, but I thought she did that with everyone. But she made a point of knowing my drink this morning. It's nice to be seen. It's a really nice feeling when someone remembers you. When I got home, I ate a little homemade oatmeal, and sat down to write this blog.
I still don't have a lot of pep - but my mind is settling a little bit. I feel.....as I said in the podcast....human. I'm not feeling as dark and mopey and grumpy. I feel pleased with myself that instead of staying in bed and allowing the dark thoughts to consume me, I got up and started the day, not knowing which direction my mind would take me. This is neat. My mind is on my side. It is saying, you're human. You are going to have ups and downs with emotions. It's OK. Just take it one step at a time. And that's what I doing.
I had taken a few pictures yesterday, while I was glowing, and this morning I played with the app a little coming up with this:
I think it's fun. It's my laundry from yesterday. I was out walking and went by this apartment complex that has these lion statues on the wall. They remind me to be courageous. I took a selfie with one of them. I did a little yoga yesterday when I was feeling low energy (took a selfie). I need to remind myself to stretch a little when I feel low energy throughout the day, which is common for me. It really does help. Then the other picture was a close up selfie.
Now, let me explain a little about my nervousness with selfies. Taking selfies makes me nervous. Especially the body shot I took in the middle. I'm working on this. I'm a tiny person. I'm healthy. I'm just tiny. But for some reason I have been attracting comments about how thin I am. They are not nice comments. I'll be smiling, sharing something fun and light hearted, and someone will go into a lecture about how I need to eat. It's hurtful. They say, "Are you ok? You're so skinny." It makes me feel self conscious about my body. It's gotten to a point, where I was getting embarrassed about how thin I am. I've spoken to doctors, who said I'm fine, healthy - my weight is normal for my height. So now? I'm trying to embrace it just like I am with my hair, beauty routine and mental health. It's all part of liking and loving myself - AS IS.
We all should embrace ourselves, appreciate ourselves, AS IS. If we want to change or improve - that's fine. But when we look at others - at least this is something I want to continue to practice - look at them with appreciation - allow people to walk their own path - be who they want to be. When we look at ourselves, we need to honor who we are today. We have the right to love ourselves just as we are.
And come on - remember the ole' saying: If you don't have something nice to say - pipe it! No, that's not it. But you know what I'm talking about. Isn't it time we just looked at and admired each other as if we are each different works of art? No one is better than you. No one is winning. We are just being...….human.
I tried a couple of Botanic Organic's products yesterday.
In the morning, I used the Chamomile & Lavender Cleansing Spray & the
Raspberry & Green Tea Daily Defense Moisturizer
I have some results to share. First of all, I like them. They are light, easy to use, smell good and feel good on my face. I didn't apply too much makeup yesterday. Just a little sparkly gold eyeshadow, some mascara and magenta lip stick. I haven't tried any new makeup products yet. These were some of the things I still had lying around my makeup drawer. Oh I don't really have a makeup drawer. I have a drawer that my makeup is in - along with hair ties, nail clippers, emery boards, and some other junk. (Note to self: Clean up the drawer and make it your special beauty drawer). Anyway - I was light on the makeup. My sister visited and the first thing she said to me was - "You are glowing. You look so pretty." I told her about my new beauty products and the exciting adventure I have ahead of me trying to figure out my beauty routine. She said whatever I used is working. So far - well done Botanic Organic.
I emailed Nancy at Botanic Organic and shared with her the compliment I already got - just a couple hours after applying the Cleansing Spray and Facial Oil. She was so pleased. She said that was one of her favorite things about her job - hearing the happy stories about her products. She said it was probably the zinc in the Raspberry moisturizer. Whatever it is, it's working.
Later in the day, when I was ready to take my shower and take off my makeup, I decided to pull out another product. The first two were doing so well, I felt ready to try another one. I tried:
Tangerine & Lemon Facial Cleansing Oil
When I got out of the shower, I expected to see the "raccoon look" that I usually have even when I wash my face. But I used this cleansing oil and when I looked in the mirror - I was not only fresh as a daisy - my eye makeup - gone! I couldn't believe it. Wow! Okay - this product won me over too. Yipeee!
Well, before I went to bed, I decided - oh what the hell. I need to try another. I'm really getting into this, so I tried....
Calendula Blossom & Rose Night Cream.
It's lovely too. So far this journey is fun!
I woke up this morning and I did my podcast. Topic: Small Changes. Here it is:
Small changes are fabulous.
I didn't take a selfie this morning. I haven't done my beauty routine yet. I hope to take one after I'm a little fixed up. If it's a good one, I'll post it tomorrow. But today, I decided to share a quote.
A toast - to making small changes. And make sure you give yourself some credit for ANY change you make that makes you feel better, love yourself more - and the cool thing - people WILL notice.
I sent a lot of emails to companies asking if they would be willing to send me free samples of their makeup, skin and hair products for me to try - in exchange for writing about my experience - testing each one out and blogging about it.
I'm almost 50 years old. I'm on the last bit of my 40's. I've never really taken the time to find out what my ideal look is, what products I like to use, and what works for me.
I've gone cheap in the past. I try things from time to time. But I usually get overwhelmed with the whole beauty care process.
But now that I'm liking and loving myself more, I find the time spent on myself is worth doing and I deserve it. I knew I wanted to buy organic, non toxic products now. I stopped dying my hair some time ago. I just want less chemicals in my life.
So after many emails, one company emailed me back. Nancy, from Botanic Organic. She was so sweet. I told her about my story, my book Mental Girl, and that I was doing a section on my website about finding my relationship with my beauty routine.
So lo and behold, thank you Nancy, who not only wrote me back with a resounding yes that she would happy to send me free samples, but also took the time to write me back and shared some personal stories about her business and her life. It has been really nice connecting with her. She bought my book, Mental Girl, and wrote to me even though she has a much more quiet mind than I do, she said she was laughing along with the book and admired me for sharing my story.
Well, I got my goodies. I will now start using each product and I'll let you know how it goes.
So far I'm so impressed with this company. The sample products came beautifully displayed and packaged, with information on what each product is, does, and how I can use them to reap the best benefits.
Here is the list of the products she sent me:
Chamomile & Lavender Cleansing Spray
Tangerine & Lemon Facial Cleansing Oil
Honey & Licorice Root Daily Cleansing Grains
Pomegranate & Argan Antioxidant Oil Serum
Raspberry & Green Tea Daily Defense Moisturizer
Calendula Blossom & Rose Night Cream
Neroli Blossom & Blood Orange Body Oil
This past weekend, I started reading a new book called Silver Hair: A Handbook by Lorraine Massey. (Nancy, from Botanic Organic recommended it) I'm loving it. If you are thinking about quitting the dye jobs and going natural, I highly recommend you read this book.
It got me thinking about how I can embrace and love my hair. I even tried just doing a couple things from the book. I didn't towel dry my hair. I let it dry wet. I tried not to touch it. I didn't put much product in it. I just put a little no chemical aloe vera hair gel that I had in my bathroom drawer. I actually saw some changes in my hair. My hair seemed happier.
I started out this morning trying Botanic Organic Chamomile & Lavender Cleansing Spray and the Daily Defense Moisturizer. I decided to just start with one or two for a few days and see how they feel. I'm new at all this - so to do too much at once, is overwhelming. So far, so good. Both are light. Both feel on my skin.
I hope other companies are willing to send me samples. too. However, if Botanic Organic is the only to do it, I'm personally pleased and feel very grateful.
Please check out their site. botanicorganic.com/
They are a small operation. Their customer service is outstanding. Plus, they took a chance on Mental Girl, and that just tickles me pink!
So I put together some pictures. I was playing with the app on my phone again. (It's fun) I took a picture of my hair, NOT toweled dried, let loose and pulled back. It felt different. I don't have any makeup on. I have a picture of the beautiful samples from Botanic Organic. I also have a picture of the book I'm reading.
So many adventures await! It's exciting!
Oh I also did my podcast this morning - topic - "Trying New Things" and here it is: