I'm not getting up early. I was getting up early. Well - we fell behind with the time change...and now I'm getting up later - which is sort of weird because I gained an hour. But on top of that...I'm not sleeping well...and that affects my mood. Grumble. Grumble. Grumble. What to do? Well, I need to figure things out because complaining and not doing anything about it - isn't working either.
I did a podcast this morning:
I really do believe in me. You know? I've worked hard and practiced a lot - and even though I'm not perfect - I have my flaws - I'm human - I like me. Yes, there are some "issues" coming up for me - and I can tell this "frazzled" feeling is a sign that I need to work on some shit. (ooops - it slipped out) I think I just need to triple dose myself with some good self care and the solutions will come.
I would like to share something neat - a simple thing - that happened this morning. Sit down. Oooh, grab your coffee or tea - I've got mine. Take a sip. Ahhhhh. Okay, so I went for my walk and then it was off to the market. The market - well - I don't really like marketing. I get a little stressed. My OCD still kicks in and I worry about what to buy. I'm working on it. I'm getting better. I just worry people watch me picking out stuff - and I feel like I might look a little weird standing there while I pick the right item. I know I have a serious look on myself - my hair is frizzy - I don't get all dolled up for the market.
But get this! I've actually changed stores! Yes! That's a big deal. I just found out that this other store (same company - but different location) stocks their shelves in the morning. The one I was going to apparently stocks their shelves at night so it's slim pickings most mornings. I didn't know that! A girl at the new store I'm going to told me! And it's true! This one is fully stocked, I don't have to worry about validating my parking, and the clerks there are super nice.
So, I was at the checkout and the cashier - he was a young kid - not a kid like a small kid - they don't hire children - but an adult - a young adult - it's just fun to say kid - ooops I'm rambling - anyway I was bagging away - I always bag my stuff (a little OCD - but mostly because it's helpful). I like doing it. I also feel it makes the whole process quicker. I notice the checkers appreciate it too. So...I'm baggin - things are happening - moving along - and then...there was a glitch. A glitch in their system. I could tell the kid didn't get why it was happening. He called for some help. They actually weren't that helpful. He just couldn't figure it out. There was no one in line breathing down our necks. For some reason, I had patience. Sometimes, by this point, I want to get the hell out of the store. But I was calm and guess what happened? I'll tell you! I figured it out! Yeah me! I said, why don't you blip, bop, and bloop instead of zag zip zop - and he did it - and sure enough it worked! I felt good, and he felt good (he thanked me for bagging too) - we smiled at each other and agreed patience and team work did the trick. I was outta there as quick as a dog shakes his tail. What? I don't know. Yesterday I was British - now I'm Southern. What the hell.
I guess the takeaway from all of that was solutions do come. Teamwork does win the day. It's OK. It's OK to need help, ask for help, receive help - take the help, be thankful for the help and then give it out when you can. It was one of those feel good moments and I took it all in.
I hope you have them today. Don't sell yourself short. It doesn't have to be a grand gesture - something huge - but look at your skills - how you solve things - how you help. I'll bet something you do puts a smile on someone's face and a warm feeling in their heart.