Oh I'm way beyond the cute definition of a worry wart. I'm an overthinker, an overworrier, I'm oversensitive - oh I'm over everything.
But I'm me.
Yes, it is completely exhausting, but what can I do? I can't just "snap out of it". No pill makes it go away. I can't seem to just wish it, will it, and dream it away. What can I do?
Wow. That question really stumped me. What can I do? I mean, I'm thinking of things I am doing - therapy, healing, using tools, trying medications, trying herbs, getting support, talking to people, practicing, attempting to talk back to the anxiety - and keeping my faith. Yeah, I have to hold on to my faith (I'm not religious) - but a faith in myself - that somewhere - deep down inside - there is a voice - (Mental Girl) and she is pulling and guiding me to try all this stuff with the hope something sticks. I want to function, find some peace with all of this and live a long and healthy life.
Whoeeeee! What can I do? I guess that's enough right?
I started the podcasts. I really am enjoying doing them. I feel like they are verbal journals, little snippets I can share with you. I hope someone benefits too from listening to them. Here is the latest one: anchor.fm/mentalgirl/episodes/ep-e18ogb/a-a2sv1t
Well...what can I do? I guess I'll keep learning to ask that in each moment. Not the future. Not about the past. But about right now. What can I do now? I 'm getting ready for bed. I'm tired. Before I go to bed, I'll write down some things I did today that made me smile. Friends have been suggesting to have a gratitude journal. I've heard about it. So what can I do? I'll try that.
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